IN SOME SMALL WAY

Life

2010-03-21T11:47:00.000-07:00

what can i do for the rest of my life?
how my future is looks like?

i like to be freedom..
i like to be a person who can follow his dreams..
can do what he wants to do..
i want to be myself.. can i?

NIGHTMARE

2009-04-09T10:28:00.000-07:00

Unbelievable night for me
Such a horrible... horrible night ever
I hope I was not there on that night...
I hope I was still in my sweet dream...
I hope I am not the one who seen it...
But... Unfortunately... something’s really happened out of the blue

Two days ago, I heard the sounds that I’ve never heard before
I seen something that I’ve never seen before
And I never have this kind of feeling before
It’s really my very 1st time
And I hope it would be the last time in my life
It was a scary night

I was sleeping at that time
Suddenly I heard someone screaming and crying outside my window
And I didn’t bother about it actually
But that guy kept shouting and shouting
He began to make weird sound
It was going to be weirder
Suddenly, I heard he said ‘Are You OK?’
That time, I knew something's going to be happened

I was going nearer my window and looking up the building without spectacles
I see nothing but I still hearing that guy shouting
So, I went to take my specs
‘OH MY GOD’ I was so shocked
I saw a dead body on the ground
And I looked at his/her (the dead person) friend was trying to pull his leg and move his/her body
I was stuck at that time without saying any words

After I seen it, I don’t know why I can’t breathe suddenly
It’s very difficult for me to inhale and exhale
I think is because something happened unexpectedly to me
That guy going to be mad and he seems like losing control
I was so worried about him actually
And suddenly he ran into the car park and I heard a very loud ‘BOM’ sound
Lots of people and the security guard was running forward to see what’s going on
Quite a long time he didn’t come out
And I thought... he was going to...

Time’s getting longer; the police and the ambulance still haven’t reached yet
After they reached, I saw them take out a black cloth/plastic something like that
And they just put it on the top of the dead body
And I knew what happened to that person
I was so sad on that time
It’s very difficult for me to describe the feeling
Until today, I’m still remember every single thing very clearly included the movement

When the sky turning into dark
Automatically I became very nervy
And is my 1st time sleep without switch off the lights
My friend called me go and sees my school counsellor and tells her about it
But... I don’t know what can I talk to her
Just let the time passing
I think it’s gonna be alright

Wish everyone that I know and don’t know could treasure the people who are still with you
And stay in the pink of health
If not you’ll regret for the rest of your life
Because that is extremely valuable to you
I’ll always remember what happened on that day- 8 April 2009

♥♥♥LOVE♥♥♥

2009-03-26T03:00:00.000-07:00

Things change everyday
As a human being, we changed
Times getting more rapidly
People who are surrounding us and close to us are actually changed
Why? Why we can’t be the same person as last time?
Is this call humanizer?
I don’t know
And I’m not dare to think about it

Because people who are surrounding me... they changed
Some of them are became mature
Of course I’m happy to those guy because they’re updated themselves into a fresh man
But, still got few of them are really make me disappointed a lot
Sad of course
But what can I do?
Nothing can do to me

Sometimes, when I was free
I just close myself into my room
and switch off the light to make it dark, and...
Try to make the whole environment as quiet as I can
and turn on the music or love songs with low volume, and
Close my eyes and started to reflect back the time when I was in kinder garden until primary to high school
And I was so happy that I could have you guys to accompany me until today
If not, my childhood won’t be as colourful as right now

For me it’s quite important for everyone to have this kind of childhood- colourful
I’m so depressed actually
Cause I can’t remember my kinder garden’s friends
Fortunately, I still remember one of my best friends
He’s call Soo You Tong (sounds same but the spelling different-sorry)
More than 13 years we didn’t meet each other
I don’t know he still remember me or not
And I’m not daring to think about it also
I just hope one day we can meet up each other again

I’ve to tell you guys that when I was in primary school I was a big liar
Ha-ha... such a long story (just skip it)
High school change me a lot
And I got lots of peers
Many things happened in these 6 years
Our life is actually just like a string
Maybe this is just the started point for us to learn how to be a right man and honest person
Laugh, cry, happy, sad, argue, share, worries...
It’s hard for me to describe the feeling
It will always in my memories

I love my peers very much
But now... most of them changed a lot
Sometimes I try to use another way to think of them
But, still can’t
Some of them became so rude and... hot tempered
And I don’t know is it this is a right way to change till like this or not

When I went to KL study
I started to think a lot of things
I don’t know is it a good thing for me to do so or not
But I’ve to think of it (no choice)
Maybe we are getting older and older
Many things came to meet our mind suddenly

Just a simple question that made me feels so shy to do it
That is kiss our both parents and grandparents
For me it is quite hard to make it happen
But I’ve to try it out
If not, I’ll regret one day, maybe the rest of my life
Because currently time is not enough for me actually
Cause life is just like a candle
We don’t know when they (the person who we loved) left us
And what can I do now...
I just hope and wish I could do it well
And work hard for the rest of my life

♥ For my family – I’ll always love you wherever you go. As your son, grandson, brother... no matter where you/I go, my heart, my soul are belong to you, love you, forever love ♥

♥ For the people who I loved – thanks for giving me the happiness, sadness, thought, worries... through out these years, if not, my life won’t be as colourful as rainbow. If I hurt you before, now it’s time for to apologize from the bottom of my heart- sorry . Love ya ♥

Just keep sending lots of love especially, light and blessings to the people who you loved
Have a great time with them
Stay protected,
One Year, One Heart, One Blood, One Love
Peace

A TRUE FRIENDSHIP

2009-03-05T19:58:00.001-08:00

Do you guys know what does ‘A True Friendship’ means?
Do you guys know what should a true friend do to his/her friends?
Is it a true friendship essential in our life?
Is it a true friend similar to best friend?
Can somebody say that a true friendship is just helping each other when they are needed?

Some people might think a true friend should not hurt each other while having a conversation
Some might think that is weird to tell someone about the truth
Some might think that we should always lend our hands to them...
Or compromise them all the time no matter the person is willing or not
And some might think we shouldn’t tell them our secrets at all
Do you guys be of the same mind with those people?
For me, it’s not

First of all, this is my first blog
From the beginning, I’ve really no idea of what to write and how to begin it in the right way
About ‘A True Friendship’, I experienced before
This is why I started my first blog
I just wanna share with you guys and hear from you, too

A true friend is always hard to find- that’s true
It’s just a kind of ‘‘Miracle’’
We need them sometimes
Less fight, less anger are quite essential
The most essential things were telling them the truth
Have your true friend done it to you?

In my opinion, the ‘truth’ is just like an improvement
No matter how bad it is, it helps
Some people might angry their friends is because they thought that it shouldn’t happened among friends
Because it may hurt
Let’s try to think in another way
If they tell you as the crow flies, is it a better way before others knew it?
If they do so, is it better than they’re (Double Faces) saying you back things?
If they done it to you, are they a super duper wrong?
For me, is not

We should thank those guys who are giving us the bad comments

They are actually trying to correct us and to let us know more about us
Because we can’t see the real image of ourselves
Even I, myself, also can’t see it clearer
Sometimes we really need help

Have your friend correct you on every occasion you are in the wrong position?
Have your friend pull you up when you are in the wrong situation?
Just continuing asking yourself questions as much as you can
‘Double Faces’ is one of the points that I mentioned just now

BEST friend and GOOD friend are actually just a name to describe a friend
But for me it is not important at all to name it as ‘Best’ and ‘Good’
For me, ‘TRUE’ is always important

Not too long ago, I read an article called ‘How Many True Friend You Have?’
I agreed with one sentence ‘In this world, none of us can find more than six true friends’
It’s true
Can you count on it now?
How many friends that really telling you the truths from the bottom of their heart?
And how many people that you are telling them the truths?
For me, I just got only two friends that always point me and correct me
Of course I’ve to thank them with not treated me as ‘FAKE’.

A true friend is not necessary to have a lot
If you guys got a lot of peers, but they’re invented to you, is it fine?
So can you tell me how many peers of you are true (to you)?

Of course what I've been written here could be right and could be wrong
You can judge me anytime you want
No one can say that is right or wrong
It just depends on the situations
This is what I want to say
Hope you guys like it

Friendship isn’t how you forget, but how you forgive.
Not how you listen, but how you understand.
Not how you see, but how you feel.
Not how you let go, but how you hold on.